Sunday, February 15, 2009

What Dreams May Come

I'm having trouble sleeping tonight. I think I'm avoiding it on some level, because I keep having the same nightmare. At least, I think it's the same one. I wake up remembering only that someone is mad at me. I know who it is; I dream that this person's mad at me all the time. I've even dreamt that they physically attacked me - and the virulent hatred expressed therein woke me up feeling stained and distressed.
I wish I knew why I keep having dreams along these lines. I hate them! It's so disturbing. This person isn't really even part of my life anymore, and the dreams don't seem to be tied to the rare occasions when I see them.
I read about all sorts of possible interpretations of dreams in my textbooks. God only knows what Freud would say. (I hate most of his theories, but maybe that's just transference, or projection, or whatever the heck it would be. I should know. It may well be on my next midterm.) I've done everything I can to resolve any conflict that might have been in that relationship. I guess I don't feel like there's any closure? But I don't know how to obtain that. I don't know what else to think, to pray. I don't know what to do that I haven't done. Maybe this bit of catharsis will help. Maybe I can get a whole four hours of sleep before it's time to get up again. Maybe I'll sleep so badly, I won't hit REM and won't have to worry about bad dreams ;-)

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

It's aliiiive...

Oh, hi guys. I haven't had anything to write about that wasn't depressing as all get out, so things have been a little quiet around here. So, I'm stealing a couple questions away from a BlogFriend named Beth and am going to answer those so you have something to read ;)

1. Remember the movie Brewster's Millions? That happens to you, except on a smaller scale. You receive a million dollars that you must spend in 30 days. However, you cannot have any assets to show for the money at the end of the month (and you can't buy something and then destroy it), you cannot waste the money, you cannot give it away, and you cannot tell anyone what you are doing. How do you ditch the dough in a month or less?
Travel, travel, and travel some more! Beignets and jazz in New Orleans and and jaunt to Paris, to London, Africa, Brazil, Ireland, Scotland, Japan, back to France for some beach time in the south...I'd probably run out of money pretty quickly actually!

2. You are locked in a toy store overnight, with no way out until it reopens in the morning. What do you play with all night?
Remote control helicopters and giant floor pianos, music boxes and karaoke machines...oh are there go-karts? Cuz I'm all over that ;-)

3. If you could have a dinner party with any three famous people, living or dead, you would be wasting your supernatural powers on hosting dinner parties. What would you do instead?
Solve world hunger (and thirst) and AIDS and cancer...duh :P If it's still keeping the people...Jesus, Obama, aaand...umm... da Vinci.

4. What's the best thing since sliced bread? Now, sliced bread ain't all that impressive, so what's the best mediocre, hum-drum improvement or advancement that has made modern life just ever so slightly more convenient for humanity, along the lines of saving yourself five seconds every time you want a piece of bread.
I like my microwave :P

5. What's your best quality? The response to this question must be a simple declarative statement. You may elaborate on that statement, provided that your elaboration does not include the words "but," "however," or "although," or any other hedging, equivocating, back-sliding, gerrymandering (which is not at all appropriate in this context, but I think it should be, don't you?) or any other type of backing down from the simple declarative statement with which you began your response.
I am seriously, fiercely loyal, and I like that about me :)